Leadmewhere is two years old today and, ironically (or maybe fittingly), I’m really not sure what to write about. I’m not sure if this is a somber occasion for remembering and commemorating the past two years, or a happy time for celebrating the second anniversary of my headlong dive into the blogging world.
Two years ago today, I published a post called First Step to a Good Anything is the Purpose Statement, and slowly opened the door of my life to the internet world.
It’s a funny thing, writing a blog. I know how many people read my blog; I’m honored and humbled by readers who have chosen to read, comment, keep coming back. The things you say and the way that you have responded to my writing encourage me to keep writing, to keep coming back to this page, to this heart-and-mind exercise of blogging.
Blogging is a practice in writing, yes. But even more than that, it’s a lesson in vulnerability.
I’ve grown in vulnerability over the past two years. I really, truly believe that I have. Ask anyone who has known me for a while. Ask my mother. The past two years, and especially the past several months, have seen me developing greatly in this area. Where walls once loomed high and my temper flashed a warning when hurt and hearts wandered too close to my own, there are holes in the wall now. Gaping spaces crumble a little lower with each passing week, revealing a softening heart slowly unclenching amidst it all.
But I didn’t really have anything to do with it.
God is the one who first sparked my interest in blogging, allowing me the opportunity to “practice” for a year, while living in Mexico and chronicling our family’s adventures on Little Family 6.
God is the one who supplied me with the very name for this blog, and who has led me faithfully throughout the past two years of both living life and blogging about that life.
And God is the one who breaks down barriers and changes, develops my heart. I’m not done growing, and I will never reach perfection, but He continues to work, continues to lead, continues to challenge.
Writing a blog truly is a funny thing; the personal accounts that I share can be read around the world. I’m writing, often intimately, about the very issues that lie closest to my heart, to an unknown audience.
God is using, and has for two years been using, this blog as a tool to work in my heart and my life. And maybe, just maybe, He’ll use what is written here to grow others, too.
~Natalia
