That Moment

That moment at 1:45pm on Sunday afternoon

when you realize that you have 40 pages of reading for Philosophy

and 100 pages for Christian Missions

and a one-page summary paper for Christian Mission

due tomorrow.

And you’re giving your testimony to the girls on your floor that night.

And you spent Friday night with two of your best friends from high school

watching your first zombie movie ever and then talking and laughing.

And Saturday you spent caring for your own small sisters, doing activities

and games and playing and painting nails.

And then you got back to school and spent the next three hours at BOTH of

your school’s improv comedy shows.

Then you stayed up til 3am catching up with your roommate.

And now it’s almost 3pm on Sunday afternoon

and you have a lot to do.

And you wouldn’t trade the past two days for anything

but you really got to get cracking.

~Natalia

Real Nostalgia

Paris has always conjured up a nostalgic, magical wonderland feeling in me. The nostalgia is no doubt due to the months I spent there as a child, and come on; who doesn’t think of Paris, France as a wonderland of baguettes, museums, and all manner of famous things?

In the months leading up to my family’s recent stay in Paris, it occurred to me that returning to the city of my dreams might wreck up the nostalgic warm fuzzies that I had built up all around Paris in my mind. Afterall, nothing kills nostalgia like ice-cold reality.

But really, I wasn’t too concerned about losing my mental shrine to Paris, and I completely forgot about any nostalgia while I was there. Which makes sense because I bet most people would take living an experience over dwelling on a glorified memory of an experience any day.

But now, more than two months after returning from France, I’ve been feeling nostalgic again. As it turns out, spending one month of reality in my beloved Paris may have only increased my appreciation for that great city. Hustling down cobblestone streets, bumping a cart full of fresh produce and fizzy water behind me, on my way to get a baguette and fresh cheese for lunch is a real life situation. It sounds perfectly Parisian; with the baguette and the cheese and the little streets and markets, but it’s real. I’ve lived it.

Another time, I sit daintily on a green park bench while the little ones scamper happily around a lovely French playground. In Chicago, barely anyone brings their infants to the park, but in Paris there are playgrounds everywhere and neatly dressed French children in dark pants and skirts run in and out of the equipment while their mothers, nannies, and grandmothers sit primly on the sidelines, rocking roly-poly babies in their prams. I know it’s real, but it’s also picturesque. Then one of France’s 5.6 billion pigeons poops on the purse of the lady making out with her boyfriend by the mini fountain and there’s a general shift from under the looming tree, while Glendy gets her skirt stuck on the slide and a darling little girl with braids babbles at Larissa in French, of which Larissa understands not one word.

It’s France and it’s wonderful, but it’s also real. Real people live there and do real things and have real good things and real bad things happen to them. I know that Paris is not a magical wonder city where everyone walks along the Seine before having a glass of wine with dinner and watching the sun set over the gorgeous Paris rooftops. But I still kind of want to move to France permanently and raise my (future) plethora of children on market-fresh produce, and promenade down the glorious Paris streets, pushing a chubby infant in a pram, the rest of my offspring trailing behind me, munching on chocolate chip baguettes, on our way to Jardin du Luxembourg.

~Natalia

Market People: Found

My mother has a thing for open-air markets. When I was a tiny child and could still fit easily into our family’s RadioFlyer wagon, she would haul my brother and I to the Farmer’s Market down the street on sunny Saturday mornings.

When we lived in Mexico last year, she discovered a fruit market up the street from our house and every Friday she would pick me up from the Christian school and drive up the hill to the market. My sisters would wait in the shade and eat the fresh fruit the Market People offered us while I helped my mother pickout pineapples, oranges, mangoes, squash, cauliflower, and whatever other produce she needed.

While we were in Paris in the fall of 2000, my mother developed a rather strong friendship with a certain set of Market People. I suppose it all started because their produce was better, and then the friendship grew as she carted me and Stevy, then 5 and 8, to the market various times throughout the week to buy fresh produce and cultivate friendships. Towards the end of our 2000 trip, she took a picture of Stevy and I with the Market People; the two of us had climbed under the metal frame of their stand, and were standing on upside-down crates, surrounded by the four or five men and women who worked the stand. We are all grinning, and if I remember correctly, Stevy and I are holding up bunches of carrots.

As she normally does on Wednesday and Friday mornings, Mom went to the market this morning. I accompanied her and we set off down Rue Mouffetard, pulling our little cart behind us. I had the all-important List in my pocket, and we wandered up and down the market aisles, picking up some cashews here, a couple parsnips there.

We passed one produce stand and continued around the corner, but something about the men at the first stand seemed vaguely familiar. As we stood in line to buy carrots and lettuce at the second stand, one of the men poked his head around the corner, glancing quizzically at Mom and I. But they can’t be our Market People, can they?

“They might actually be our Market People,” I conceded as Mom paid for the lettuce at the second stand. Still lacking some fruit, we rounded the corner once again and stopped in front of the first stand, me becoming more convinved every minute that these two men were some of our original Market People.

We bought some strawberries, a couple oranges, sampled a couple tomatoes, then Mom spoke up; “How long have you been here?” She asked. They didn’t quite understand the question. “It’s okay, it’s okay.” Mom assured them, shrugging off the language barrier and turning to inspect the red potatoes. I stood by, list in one hand, cart in other.

A middle-aged woman approached the stand and the Market Men wasted no time in asked her if she spoke English. “Non…” Minutes passed and Mom continued to shop and chat, both of us accepting the free samples we were offered. Then an elderly man approached the stand, grey beret on his head and spectacles balanced on his nose.

“Do you speak English?” the Market Men asked him eagerly, still dedicated to finding a translator. The man nodded emphatically and turned to Mom. After a moment or two of explanation and misunderstanding, the man turned to the Market Men and explained to them that we live in Chicago, but have visited Paris before, and were they by any chance here eleven years ago?

“We have been here 20 years!” The older Market Man exclaimed, before thanking the man heartily for his assistance. Then he turned back to Mom and I, “I recognize you from last time!” he grinned, before handing us some grapes to sample.

So we found our Market People.

Frenish

Months ago, when it was decided that I would experience two months in Mexico and one month in Paris with a single week in the United States to separate the two trips, I had a feeling it might be a little tough. And while there have been some more emotionally/spiritually challenging elements of leaving a life in Mexico, returning to a life in Chicago, and then coming to Paris, the biggest struggle I have encountered is very practical.

It’s language.

I like to think that I used to speak French. Three months in France at age eight, followed by years of private French lessons, not to mention a close friend throughout jr. high and high school whose mother spoke to me in pure French, and you would think I’d remember a least some of it now.

And I do remember a very small amount of French, and I have faith that more and more will come back to me as the month here progresses, but there’s something else inhibiting my French.

It’s Spanish.

While I do not confuse French and Spanish, when someone approaches me and reels off a beautiful sentence in French, of which I understand the pronoun “I” and nothing more, the first thing that comes to my mind is Spanish. It’s not English, it’s fresh in my mind, and I speak it worlds better than I currently speak French.

But it’s not French.

As I was tempted to become discouraged, I realized that in October 2009, when I arrived in Mexico with my family for our 8-month stay, I spoke very little Spanish. And now, not two years later, many Mexicans consider me to be approaching fluency. And it is all by the grace of God that I learned Spanish.

So, I suppose since God helped me learn Spanish, He is fully capable of helping me (re)learn French.

~Natalia

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